On the Harvest Before the Hardest

It is almost October now. The end of the month of September is the end of Summer, and the beginning of the next season. I am struck by the rapidity with which the leaves are changing their colors, as if they are quickly changing into shimmering gowns and dancing to the ground to celebrate the…

That Beautiful Pain

I returned home from a short weekend trip to visit close friends in far places yesterday. On the trip home, I quickly sketched out a few thoughts from the weekend in a bumpy slant, hoping that I could adequately freeze my memories to paper before they dissolved away as quickly as the summer heat into…

To War, With Love

The end of the summer. Close friends have left already to head back to their respective campuses, eager to start the upcoming semester and move into dorms and apartments. Others have just finished back to school shopping, with color coordinating school supplies and the newest style of Toms. Still others are soaking up their last…

With Every Hammer of the Nail

And so, the summer draws to a close. I just got back from vacation a few days back, and it was a much needed break from everything that’s been going on around me for the past few months. I was able to step outside of myself by serving as a leader for a girls’ camp,…

Daughters

Daughters, I have envy. I envy you, Woman. You who walked with Him, talked with Him, held Him in your arms. I envy the time you spent with Him – the times you sat by His feet and the times He looked in your eyes and called you by name. I envy you, Apostle to the…

Masterpiece, the Master’s Piece

Finally, I can breathe again. Finally, I know in my heart and feel in my lungs and hear in my soul what silence means. They say silence is not the absence of sound, but the absence of noise. They say silence is not the absence of sound, but the absence of self. They – referring to the…

In the Beginning

In the beginning, the earth was formless and empty. Darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. And God spoke “Let there be light” and there was light. Tonight, I went back and helped teach religious ed to middle school kids. It’s not a new thing for…

A Smoother Story

It’s been a long, tiring, dragging past few weeks. Granted, I’ve been busy, but it’s been that hazy, timeless type of summer that I remember from being a kid, where the days sort of run together and I wake up more tired than I was the night before. I haven’t had much to say on…

The Recipe for Faith

I lost 15 pounds in two weeks. I am not saying this in triumph, either; I am not holding the waistband of my jeans out in joy like a bad Jenny commercial. While my doctor could not give me a definitive answer, as we were waiting for test results to come back, she told me…

Son, Sun

I just got back from the beach today. It was a perfect day – a breeze, warm sand, cool water, birds calling softly over the filtering country music playing in my ears, and the right amount of watermelon in my cooler. Unfortunately, as I now sit and type, I am wincing from the pain of…

Who Wrestles

It has been ten days since my last blog post. And in those ten days, I have moved home from campus, settled back into my old bedroom (with a cat who thinks it’s her bedroom), and begun to gain back the weight I’d lost due to stress from finals (read: the hellish week that wrapped up…

Crucible, Cross – the Crux of the Matter

God works in mysterious ways. He makes His will known with strange timing. Yesterday was the unofficial end to my year here on campus, the last Sunday night I would spend living on campus, the next few days simply tying up loose ends and shipping things home. And so last night was my last night,…